to the following people::

jen
den
alex
glennie
heidi
burn
lylen
kj
umali
denise
ging
leah
am i forgetting anyone?! i hope not... well, thanks for coming last night! i had so much fun being with you guys...

ging:: 3 years in a row!

glennie:: sorry about the same cd gift thingy.. i should've told you that i wanted the good charlotte cd too.. :)

jen:: even though you weren't able to sleep over like what was originally planned, i'm still happy that you were allowed to go... thanks for the john mayer dvd! best gift ever!

den:: i guess this formally ends our 2-person stuff... our curse doesn't work on us anymore!

alex:: thanks for... sleeping over?! hahahaha...

heidi:: kuya gio said that the octopus joke was corny... but i liked it! :)

burn:: shhhhh... hehehe... don't worry about x and me..

lylen:: silay...

kj:: did you learn anything from gardenwire's jamming session?

umali:: do you have that same thing you gave me, too?

denise:: thanks for sitting next to me even if i was just cursing all over... call me if you need any help with text twist!

leah:: i'm sure you had a great time... what with k*y* *i* being there... :)

mostly, i just really want to say THANK YOU! you've made me happy... really happy... alabshuol!!

to those who i wasn't able to invite and who weren't able to go, this was what happened:

WE ATE! and that's about it... hahaha... gardenwire wrote our imaginary song while we were dreaming... errrm... i don't have anything else to say so i guess i'll end this post here... bye!

update:: 13 out of 15 people are going tomorrow... :)

hey... just got home from ging's... we went to school early this afternoon... the reason? well, the notebook... i gave it already... ging and i looked stupid... we were spying on her while she was reading the notebook and were telling each other what part she was already reading... the other stupid thing we did was everytime "she" looked our way, we tried to cover our faces... but that was no use coz she already knew we were there anyway... after those "spy missions", i rode home with ging... we watched a couple of friends episodes which were really hilarious.. while watching, we were also on the phone with leah talking about the day's adventures and happenings...


when i gave that notebook, i felt lighter inside, thinking that it was a good thing that i did that... i felt lighter coz i felt that i finally let everything i felt out with that notebook... i thought that that was how my day would end... but no... there's more... my friend who, even if i don't mention her name you 'll al know, got to talk to my "ex - best friend" about the notebook... what did she(ex) say? she said that i felt as if she is "longing" for me and that she didn't need my sympathy.. the first time i was told about that, i replied "ouch!".. but now, i ralize that i didn't even write anything in that notebook that could make anyone think that... i wrote there that i knew that she didn't need me... so does that mean that i think she's "longing" for me?! i don't think so... sympathy? what did i write that made her feel that i was sympathizing or whatever? i can't actually know how she feels about anything coz she hardly talks about her feelings.. so how could i say anything about how she feels and how i understand her feelings when i don't even know how she feels?! or was she using another meaning for sympathy? but whichever meaning she used, i just can't figure out how she could say that i ws sympathizing with anything coz none of what i wrote showed pity nor understanding... it was all about confusion and al about how i felt and what i knew... but what was weird was that i felt as if i needed to apologize to her... i felt as if i wrote someting wrong though at the same time, i was confident with everything written there... i felt like crying again... ging, leah and ate kat were the people who i was texting about how i felt... they were all telling me that i didn't need to apologize.. that i didn't write anything wrong... that i shouldn't cry... but why do i still feel this way?! i just hate it! now i regret writing that letter.. now i regret giving that notebook to her... now i regret having to mind what my other friend said about patching things up... now i regret having to write and say anything... i really hate this! i should already be at ease with everything...


now i know what i need... a moment listening to either simple plan or good charlotte... my "sanity medicine".. my "calming potion"... my "flipside"... to simple plan and good charlotte(what are the possiblities of them to ever read this?!):: thanks for making music!


how great is that?! i turned my discman to random and it played "addicted"... remember one of my last posts?! hahaha...


change mood.. i'm really excited about my birthday! not just coz it's my birthday but coz of what's gonna happen... 11 out of 15 of the people i invited have already confirmed that they are coming! thanks ma for letting me do this! i love you!! hope to see those 11 people at linden... another thing, 3/5 of gardenwire is gonna be there... as alex said: gardenwire reunites!

simple plan rocks!

good charlotte kicks ass!

i can't believe that i was actually not only listening, but also singing one of avril's songs! ahk! well, that song was the reason why i am writing my, hopefully, final letter to my "ex - best friend"... hmmm... i've decided not to continue my, supposedly, "post" which i typed the other day... i forgot to save the last part of my post and just as i was going to post it, the "error" thingy happened again... so now, i really hope that i won't forget to save this before i post it...


i've been online for almost 3 hours already... what have i been doing online? well, first, i checked my mail which was full of spam as
usual... then, when i couldn't think of anything else to do, i created a pet in neopets.com... it was getting boring so i thought really hard of something productive i could do... no eprel, i didn't translate english songs into filipino... i searched for simple plan fanlistings and joined...so far, i've joined 2 fanlistings and i am already a part of the invasion crew... i've been such a simple plan fanatic for the past few weeks... well, simple plan and good charlotte too.. as i was saying, i've been such a simple plan and good charlotte fanatic for the past few weeks... i've actually been listening to them ever since last year but i've been listening to them more nowadays after i bought their cd... they've even "rocked" me to sleep for more than a week already... and when i get up in the "morning", i still play their album over and over and over again... even when i'm not at home.. though i can't really say that i can relate to their songs, i still like them! i don't try to find songs that i can relate to but i like songs which have meaningful lines in them... those which i could use as a sort of saying to get me through whatever is happening... or those that can take my mind off things even for just a few minutes... do you know the feeling that you're just so tired of what's happening in you're life or your tired of thinking about only yourself? that's how i feel sometimes that's why i listen to simple plan's or good charlotte's music so that i could also have a "peek" at another person's life... it doesn't always have to be all about me... at some point, it also has to be about others... so i guess that's that...


this entry didn't really turn out the way i expected... it was more "informing"?! i didn't really talk about what's been happening... see? that's exactly what i meant... music just makes me think about other things... just like what has happened now...


before i go, i just want to say sorry to those people i didn't get to invite to my birthday... bawi ako next time... babye!